momoironeko's Diaryland Diary

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High school drama again?

I really hoped I would never have to go through high school drama again, especially at age 27 and a baby on the way. I guess that's my lot in life.

Sometimes in life there are decisions that make us, break us, or destroy us. Some may not have the outcome we wanted.

I have made decisions in my life that hurt for a long, yet temporary, time. I look back and see how I prospered from said decisions. Yet, sometimes these situations come back to haunt us. An example would be how I cut ties with 99% of the people I knew in my "hometown" after J and I got married. Most of the people I called friends were moochers and pretty low on the totem pole of society. That being said, they were the only individuals to "befriend" me. It hurt for awhile, but eventually it ceased and I made true friends that don't take advantage of my kindness.
Four years later, I get an IM from one of those people. I had never removed her from my list and they sought me out. I don't want to avoid them but I know it is what I have to do to keep from getting hurt again.

You know where I'm getting at. I want to be friends with everyone I can but I know this is impossible. It hurts to walk away and not be a friend, that's just who Neko is. What's said is said, what's done is done. People have been hurt, emotions are on high. Just cease, desist, end the elementary/high school drama and let this site be what it is meant to be. And please, for the love of sanity, don't think of Neko as a bad person but merely someone who is weary of these things. I am walking away, it is the only thing I can do even though it hurts very badly.

Thank you to those of you who really knew me, you will be missed.
~Neko~

1:48 p.m. - 2009-09-08

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